The Big Change Coming

Alright first blog post, here goes nothing. 

I created this blog a few weeks ago for the single purpose of having it for what the Lord is about to be doing in my life, but I’ve come to the realization that I might want to start using it a little earlier to let you all know exactly what the Lord is about to do. I also just wanted a blog because Ashley has a blog. (See what I did there Ashley… Are you proud?)

A few months ago, after an amazing visit from the Kolbs and the Robby Dawkins weekend the Lord started bringing up Nicaragua more and more in my thoughts and then around Christmas he showed me that he wanted me to actually go to Nicaragua for a year. Now, if any of you  know me, you know that I’ve never even been on an airplane so the thought of actually leaving the country was terrifying. I spent about a month fighting with the Lord (which is one of my favorite things to do) before actually trying to put His plan in motion. 

I’d talked to a few people about it and those people were very supportive but nothing was really happening… that is until I prayed for confirmation. The next day I received a call from Carrie and my grandmother got on board. So since then things have been happening rather fast and things seem to really be coming together. I’ve gotten a general budget planned, I’ve started collecting things I’m going to need to bring with me, and Carrie and I are talking regularly.

For me however, and I think for a lot of people, when you put your entire life in the Lord’s hands and I feel like I have, there comes a lot of struggle and a lot of insecurities. Wondering if I’m really hearing him correctly, worrying about what people will think, whether or not I’ll even make it down there. I just have to constantly remind myself that the Lord is going to take care of me and if this is His plan then he’ll provide a way.

And I am so grateful for my grandparents, they are so wonderful and are being so supportive. I didn’t really expect them to support this calling because I didn’t even support it at first but they are and it’s so amazing.

Anyway, the plan as of now is I will be going down there sometime in July and I will be staying with the Kolbs. I’m so very grateful for them and am so glad they are willing to have me. What I plan to being doing down there is mainly seeing what the Lord leads me to do and what He’s doing. I also have a feeling I might be going down there because Missions might just be the thing I’m supposed to do with my life. I know the Lord will being using my heart for kids and my willingness to serve Him while I am down there and I can’t wait.